Deafening Silence

As always,

the silence is deafening.

I remembered something in the midst of that deafness today-

something that I had preached but not practiced-

that the Universe will teach us the same lessons in different ways

over and over until we learn what is required for us to understand

from those lessons and finally make sense of it all.

Unfortunately, these lessons do not come with subtitles,

do not come with announcements, do not come with headings

or an Amber alert; the Universe just keeps throwing them at us

and it is up to us to lean in and make sense of what is happening

or try to notice if there is a pattern.

I realized and learnt a few months ago

that the Universe had been teaching me lessons

to love myself and look inward for a long time in a variety of ways.

I learnt and realized the Universe had been teaching me lessons

to be authentic and to find a true version of my own self

that I could finally take out into the world.

I realized that the Universe was teaching me to love better, trust more,

have more intention in all that I do and show up consistently and with truth.

But the hard part of all these realizations

is the sustenance of it all.

Life gets in the way again

and we tend to forget the lessons we learnt.

So what is the Universe really teaching me right now?

What must I learn in this enormous deafening silence

as I lay on my bed and let time wash over me?